Next month I turn 50. Now I have mixed thoughts about this! I am truly grateful to have reached this milestone healthy with a wealth of skills, experiences and wisdom behind me. I have an amazing husband, children and a great network of friends that I have ‘collected’ throughout my 50 years, so then 50 is just another number isn’t it. I feel a tinge of sadness leaving my 40’s behind because I have enjoyed them so much and have grown and matured more than at any other time in my life.
I reflected on why this might be and I think it may be because I am finally comfortable where I am and who I am in my life. At 40 I didn’t feel good about myself inside or out and I spent far too much time worrying what others thought or said about me. There are probably lots of contributing reasons why I feel energized and ready to take on the world at 50 but sometimes you need to go through difficult and challenging times to appreciate where you are today. A few years ago I broke my foot badly, needing a plate and pins surgically inserted and we were renovating at the time with no kitchen or laundry and 3 children under 5. The few months I spent in a wheelchair and on crutches made me appreciate walking and taking getting around for granted, and how much tougher others do it, not just for a short time but everyday. After this I started running and to this day I run most mornings very early. The running and fitness is great, but this is so important for my headspace, it helps to give me the confidence and belief to move outside my comfort zone. Now if I don’t run for a few days I feel like something is missing or wrong.
At 50, no one is asking me what I want to be when I grow up, am I going to Uni? You want to travel for years! But what about your career? Isn’t it time to settle down, is this boyfriend ‘the one’? When are you going to buy a house? So you’ve got the house and husband you better get a move on for babies, you’re not getting any younger. Are you having a second baby, you know the risks are higher the older you ‘leave it’? You’ve got 2 kids, but people are still asking are you going to try for a third? I did the 3rd child, well actually he was a beautiful surprise package at 44, so people finally stopped asking ‘what next’ after that. Ah the serenity, I am not feeling the pressure anymore and people have stopped asking, what next! They probably think I am mad to start my own business Leave it with me, an admin and support service for seniors in my late 40’s, but now is the time I can put that wealth of skills, knowledge, experience, drive, determination and confidence to good use!
I don’t want to get to 70 or 80 and wonder what if? I want to know I tried, even if it didn’t work I gave things my best shot. I’ve always been a risk taker and love the thrill and excitement of adventure, so why stop or slow down at 50?! If my 50’s are anywhere as eventful, motivating and insightful as my 40’s were then bring it on!